The Perpetual Need for Childish Endeavors… Like THREATENING People

OK my lovelies. Tis I. Your fiendishly familiar bitching bastard speaking out against the monotonous drone of idiocy that perpetually flows within the community.

For years we’ve been plagued with one form of idiocy or another in the GVC (Greater Vampire Community) and its time people begin to take a stand on the issues… AS THEY COME UP… After all, some of the have been around for a good long while and only cycle to the surface occasionally.

This time, folks, its people threatening people, either through outright threats of violence, inciting others to violence, and even, veiled threats of violence.

You see. Even in the best of communities you have people, often mislabeled as “bullies”, who go out of their way to make themselves seem like the victim, twisting events, attitudes, and actions along the way to enable this ‘victimhood’.

Take, for example, TWO of the three balls I attended this past Halloween.

One was the AMAZING Court of the Dark Fae. This event was held at the Audobon Zoo’s fantastic Tea Room with a secondary location held in the “swamp”, where I was to perform a Voodoo Ritual Blessing for the inaugural event. Most of my time there, I spent out on the open (and covered for the rain). MOST of the time, I was there, I was in the company of the King of Dallas, Mike Burgess. Even to the point of him itroducing me to Isibella. I filmed a little segment from the location, in which Lord Chaz was present. And then I made my way to the location where I was to do my ritual. Upon arrival, I spent time with Daniel du Kinque (mostly trying to track down the cigar, water and rum for the ritual). I did take time to check out the incredible buffet set up in this location. Fried Green Tomatoes and Roast Beast (on the rare side just like I like it)…

While at this particular venue, Maven was spinning, so I steered well clear of the DJ booth (until I was brought to the DJ booth by Isibella and her Court to perform the actual blessing). I saw Logan ONE time, to which I reached out my hand and said, “I still think of you, Brother.” and moved on to leave for the night. The whole exchange lasted LESS than 5 seconds and on my way out, I saw Daley coming off the ‘train’ as I was in line to get on the ‘train’ to go back to the main event space…

That’s it. One time. For LESS than 5 seconds. PERIOD. And then I caught Anya’s ritual in the main hall, to which I took a couple of sneak pics. Then I caught an uber and left. And only one rum shot was had the entire night because I take my Priesthood seriously when people hire me for work.

The SECOND event was the Alliance Ball. Upon entry, I spent time perusing the scene to see who was there and what, exactly, was going on where. I found a place to post up. Close to my two favorite things… The food and the booze. LOL. I poked my head out on the veranda ONE TIME. Noticed who was out there and turned around to steer clear of who was there… Logan and Daley.

I took a picture of where I posted up and made a campy comment about my “glamour” working and stayed right there EXCEPT for three specific occasions. The first, and most obvious, where I was standing for the predominant part of the night was RIGHT BEHIND THE MAIN BAR. Rum and cokes anyone???

The second time was to go and relieve myself. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, even I have to take a piss every now and again.

The third was to LEAVE THE ENTIRE BUILDING to go downstairs and deal with one of my kids who was in trouble. AS I WAS TALKING with him downstairs, Lori Koen Slavich, Beau Blackledge, and Aradia Esoterica made their illustrious entrance to the event.

After dealing with my wayward street child, I returned to the party. I posted up, yet again in that self same spot. At this time, however, I was joined by two young attendees, Mikki Loga and Steven Gunther.  We had a lovely conversation and it made the night so much more fun.

WHILE carrying on the conversation with Mikki and Steven, a disheveled Logan South came in from the direction of that patio balcony. I reached out my hand, yet again, and it was received. Logan then went on to ask where the bathroom was. I told him that it was behind him, second door on the left. He turned and began to go into the door IMMEDIATELY to the left… NOT the second door, so I called out to him that he was at the wrong door… TWICE. However, I. DID. NOT. MOVE. from my location.


This is where ‘veiled threat’ comes into play. Logan’s ENTIRE recount of the events, sadly, are a lie. A complete and utter fabrication. In his recounting of the events, he fails to take into account that I made NO MOVES that were not witnessed by CROWDS of people. As I said. I’m DELIBERATE not a fool.

I DELIBERATELY opened the doors for communication to have them shut in my face by an egomaniacal, manipulating douchepickle of a wannabe community leader who is more a cult leader than anything else.

Logan, in an open post on his facebook page, writes, “DO NOT try to corner me to shake my hand and make it appear that there is some peace between us. There isn’t.”

This predigious and, ironically, copy-cat egomaniacal douchepickle further states, “or I may deck your fucking lights out because I can’t stand the thought of having an abuser’s hand on my skin.”

You see. This is where, you may ask, what abuser is he talking about… Me. Of course. He’s perpetuating a lie based on a lie by someone else to justify his threat of violence. Even though people who have ACTUALLY spent YEARS living with me have stated several times that this is patently untrue. To justify his threat of violence, he has decided to embrace a lie…

This whole year has been about mending fences for many of us and many of the Elders in the GVC are actually attempting to cohesively work together to bring peace and understanding back into the GVC, as a whole… All save the group that call themselves “UNITY”… LOL

Sad. Pathetic. And becoming more sad and pathetic as time goes by…

Oh… And a personal message to Logan… This makes me more believe MIX’s side of the story of how you’ve sent goon squads after him and tried to force his little crazy ass away from the community. Oh. Wait. There’s even POLICE REPORTS that corroberate Mix’s side of the story. Sorry dude. YOU are the ABUSER. You’ve abused your people, your authority (such as it is), and your title.

To the rest of the GVC, as a whole, whenever you allow people of this nature, who either outright threaten others, or use veiled threats and are too chicken shit to actually name names in their threats, to enter your events, you are telling members of the GVC that you are TOTALLY OK WITH THE FACT THAT THERE MIGHT BE VIOLENCE AT YOUR EVENT. You might want to think about that when you’re producing your events.

Do you REALLY want to be seen as the person who allowed violence at your event? Do you REALLY want to take the chance that violence could break out at your event? It’s got to stop somewhere.

Threats have NO PLACE in ANY community. EVER. So stop with the childish bullshit. This isn’t Jr High. You’re not big boy/girl on campus. You can stop with the threats and veiled threats. Its so juvenile. And IF (and I do mean “IF”) you are truly attempting to be a good leader in the GVC, it might behoove you to understand that NOT EVERYONE is going to fall into your personal beliefs/attitudes/interests/associations. That’s just not how any community works.

Threats have NO PLACE in the GVC.

Stupidity in the GVC, YET AGAIN!!!

OK my lovelies… It is I, the Grumpy Friggin Bastiche From Hell.

Let me state this for the record. NEW ORLEANS IS NOW AND FOREVER A NEUTRAL HAVEN FOR THE WHOLE OF THE GVC. To that end, I am going to speak to YOU, the fucktard that decided to call a location, threaten the OWNERS of that location, to get ANY event cancelled makes you lower than low.

Yes. Yes. Yes. I know there are going to be those that are out there that are going to say that Logan is simply crying “wolf”! No. This time. Not even close. Events here, in New Orleans don’t just put money in the pockets of the “promoters”. It puts money in the COMMUNITIES pockets as well… From the hotels, B&Bs, Air B&Bs to the restaurants, pubs, bars of all flavors to the wait staff, bartenders, housekeepers, fast food servers, and any other friggin person that works in this TOURIST INDUSTRY FUCKING TOWN. In other words, you thankless fucktards, you attempted to take money out of MY pocket as well. I work in the tourist industry you fuckwitted cockknocking thundercunts.

You don’t seem to get it. EVEN though I had issues with Father Sebastiaan, I, PERSONALLY, took money out of my pocket to buy tickets for FOUR off duty police officers to attend Endless Nights to insure the safety of guests in New Orleans the year HIS event received threats similar to this nature. It was voted on by NOVA, ratified, and accepted that WE WOULD DO SOMETHING, because NEW ORLEANS IS A NEUTRAL MECCA FOR THE GREATER VAMPIRE COMMUNITY. As ANY of the Mecca’s for the community should be. We did it because it was THE RIGHT THING TO DO.

Logan and I have an issue. That will never be settled until WE, Logan and I alone, have a sit down and speak like adults. I will fight for his right to be a douchepickle all he wants. It is HIS right to be that. You don’t have a GODDAMN, MOTHERFUCKING, single right in this life, nor any other, to threaten the people who may be home to an event. Grow the fuck up you fucking pieces of shit. You want to fucking hurt him in MY city… You better be able to go through me and mine first… I will protect him. Despite, and maybe because of, him being a douchepickle. I will protect him because he is coming to MY city. I will protect him because it is the RIGHT thing to do. Like it or not. He brings people here to enjoy themselves in New Orleans and has EVERY right to do so.

You think its cool to take the money out of people’s pockets so that you can have your fucking little jollies. You’re no better than those fucking people threatening the children after a mass shooting. You are no better than those fuckers torturing the children in the fucking concentration camps on our Southern border. You are fucking no better than the motherfuckers who have harped on Greta’s autism instead of arguing her points.

You deserve NOTHING good in life.

You ARE the fucking weakest link.

DON’T come to New Orleans.

DON’T fucking stay on my friend list, if you happen to be part of it.  I know there are ‘observers’ from other groups there… Including some who may have been a part of this fucking stupid enterprise to fuck someone over.

Fuck off… Fuck straight off…

Vampires, Roleplayers, Larpers and the Crescent City! Oh MY!

Look. I’m all for people being proud of their cities. It is something that SHOULD be a part of EVERYONE within the GVC, in general, and the world beyond that.

I’m proud of New Orleans. I am proud that, even though people are attempting to make it seem differently, She will ALWAYS be neutral in nature… As any “Mecca for the GVC” should be. Yes. There are MORE than one “Mecca for the GVC”.

Now. I don’t give a damn who lays claim to a piece of New Orleans. I don’t give a damn what organization you belong to. I ONLY give a damn about what you bring to the city. The hope you inspire within the community.

That’s it. That’s all I am concerned with. What you bring to the party, so to speak…

The past few days have been uncharacteristically hateful and filled with a vomitous bile.  Disregarding the very fact that not one person has come forth with any sort of common sense solution… Its just been muck-raking, mud-slinging, and a shit storm of what-aboutisms. Finger-pointing about every feckless, dubious allegation from 20+ years ago to the present.


You’re supposed to be friggin adults. Well let me clue you in on a little something. AS AN ADULT, just because I have problems with someone, this doesn’t mean that I won’t go to events to mingle with OTHER GVC members that I am friends with or consider to be close enough to call “family”. I am NOT supporting a specific person. I am supporting COMMUNITY. EVERY event, whether Endless Nights, Blood Lust, Alliance, Anne Rice, or even NOVA’s Cirque Du Nuit, hosts vendors and talent from across the spectrum of the community. I, like many others, go to support THEM. Not one specific person. THE. COMMUNITY. MEMBERS. EMPLOYED. BY. THESE. EVENTS. As well as to meet with those that have come to enjoy the Crescent City.

AS AN ADULT I do NOT judge a whole group of people based on the actions of a portion of that group. I judge people based on their OWN actions. I do NOT tell people who they can and cannot be friends with because I do NOT like being told who I can and cannot be friends with. That’s called being a FUCKING ADULT.

WHEN you come to New Orleans KNOW that those that are of the true spirit of New Orleans will NEVER make you choose between which parties to attend, which people to speak to, which places to go.  We will ONLY ever ask that you be safe. We will ONLY ever ask you to respect the Hotel/Motel, bar, event staff. We will ONLY ever want for you to enjoy your stay in our beautiful Crescent City.

FUCK the haters. ENJOY. FUCK any and all who attempt to tell you what parties and people to support. That is NOT the adult thing to do.

OH. And just to reiterate a few other things. I AM perfectly cool with sitting down like adults and hashing things out. I’ve made this KNOWN since Father Sebastiaan and I had issues… Yet. NOT ONE of you attempt to do this. No. You’d rather continue the same fucking shit that has perpetuated bad blood since the very beginning of the GVC. Sad. Bigly.

But what can I expect from people who continue to act like the GVC version of the GOP and continually spinning bad behavior to what they feel makes them appear to be innocent…

I. AM. AVAILABLE. I don’t hide for any reason nor from anybody. Feel free to say, “Hey. Zaar. Can we talk?”… I will let you know if I can, at that time, or if I need to set up another time for it. I. AM. AVAILABLE. TO. TALK. LIKE. AN. ADULT

(Have the simple minded got this fact yet??)

To those that think they know me… Grow the fuck up. If you truly knew me, you’d know that I can be a highly forgiving person.

Otherwise… Keep my fucking name out your mouth.

Yet again… Into the breach

Look. I’m not here to tell you what to believe or why to believe it. I’m here to speak on a subject that seems to be the hallmark of the weak and the plaything of the wannabe in crowd.


OK. We have a group of individuals who seem to find it funny to allow people to threaten others on their facebook wall. “We’re gonna come there and handle things the wolf way”, “Someone should beat that ass”, “I’m planning a road trip to show those assholes just what I can do” and shit like this.

Are you fucking kidding me?? Have you fucking NOT been paying attention to what the hell is going on in the United States lately? People are being absolutely ape-shit bonkers and following through with OTHER people’s threats of violence.

Hell. We even have idiots carrying out shit simply because it will please and/or appease those who CALL people to violence. There are some people who are TRULY mentally ill.  These people will ALWAYS put the needs of one person or another over the safety of the community.

As I wrote, in response to yet another Darwin award winning person, and repeated on VCN, “However, as EVERYONE should be aware, there ARE mentally unstable people in EVERY community on the face of the planet. The GVC is NOT exempt from this fact… (There are) those who WILL take the animosities to the next level. Inciting violence is an actual issue… ESPECIALLY, lately in the America…”

2)  Pointing fingers

C’mon. Do I REALLY have to get into the whole, “this is so fucking childish that it is BEYOND grade school”. Stop. Address the issues that arise and stop with the whole ‘What About-isms”… Who the fuck do you think you are? A bloody fucking Republican talking about Hillary’s friggin emails?? JesusFrigginChristOnACrutch. Grow the fuck up. Are the allegations true, ‘yes’ or ‘no’? Why are they true or false? What’s being done about those that are true? What’s being done about those that are false?

That’s all anyone is TRULY concerned about. Why is this so fucking hard?

As an OPENLY gay man in the GVC, I have had my fair share of false allegations. EVERY time it is by certain individuals that I have spoke out against. EVERY. FUCKING. TIME. And it is ALWAYS, “he slept with an underaged person”, though the individuals making the claims have known me for years and KNOW, beyond the shadow of a doubt that I have never dated anyone under the age of 21. (Cause I like my boiz legal to drink so we can go dancing and attend GVC social functions.) It is ALWAYS the same people. ALWAYS. That spread these malicious, incindiary, and heinous accusations. Always. The. Same. People. I’ve fought these allegations fang and claw and will continue to do so. *shrug* I don’t know any other way.

However. I handle my OWN shit. I don’t plead for people to fight for me. I handle my shit. BECAUSE of this… Because of the type of person I am… Because of the good that I CONTINUE to do DESPITE the heinous allegations levied against me… People have begun to speak up on my behalf.  INCLUDING those that have lived with me for extended periods of time… From my Best Friend, who now resides in Dallas, to people who ACTUALLY were on Contract with me to people who have stood beside me, worked with me, partied with me, and seen me through major bouts of illness or helped me feed the homeless. People have begun to call BULLSHIT on the allegations.

One time those stupid people tried that when I was dating a 36 year old cop. You should have seen the giggle we both got over that shit. Damn it was funny…

3) STOP Attempting To Call People Out As ‘FAKE’

Who the fuck died and made you the Watcher of the Were, the Umpire of Vampire-dom, the Bench of the Bestiary??? You are NOT the authority of what makes a vampire a vampire because EVERYTHING we have is ANECDOTAL at best… Supposition, at worst. So stop.  Just fucking STOP already. You know the one thing that you will NEVER see or hear from me… Who is and who isn’t a vampire. Oh. I have my thoughts on it. I do. However… Calling someone “White Wolf/True Blood posers”, “roleplayers”, “LARPers” or ANYTHING is NOT. YOUR. FUCKING. PLACE.

Sorry. It is not your place. Never was. Never will be. We’ve had enough drama in the community by people attempting to do this. Stop adding to it.

4) Do You REALLY Need To Be So BLATANTLY Stupid

Internet threats are a growing issue in this fucking community. People threatening to dox people all the time. People posting and calling out community members birth names, when people live in situations that can potentially be VERY dangerous. Are you fucking SERIOUS? When did this community turn to acting like the GOP? C’mon, folks. We’ve worked HARD to get from the shadows into OUR version of the light. Many of us live in cities, states, and countries where it is completely, and horrendously, dangerous to be what we are. Those of us that are blessed to live in an area where we can be MORE open city STILL have to be careful. There are simply stupid people out there who will fuck over community members because their names have been laid out there.

Stop acting so fucking stupid. Yay. You know a person’s birth name. Keep it to yourself or pass it PRIVATELY to people who may need to know it. Otherwise… SHUT THE FUCK UP. God I can’t believe how stupid and dangerous some of our supposed intellectuals and researchers are… Just blurting people’s birth names out because they have a wild hair up their arse. Posting it in bogs, speaking it on Facebook Live… Don’t. Don’t attempt to justify endangering people’s lives simply because you are responding to another person’s threats… That’s simply ludicrous and HYPOCRITICAL of you for justifying it as “protecting the community”.

5) In Closing.

Yes. We ARE a community. Like it or not. We may be a “subset” of humanity, however, we ARE a community. We have different factions, which we call everything from Courts to Councils to Orders to… We have a plethora of names for everything in the community. Like EVERY community, we’ve begged, borrowed, and outright stolen from every other community that has drawn our interest. We’ve done it to religions. We’ve done it to ancient cultures. We’ve done it to practically everything that has attracted our attention.

We ARE a community. Like EVERY community we do not always agree, see eye to eye, or like every other part of the community so STOP with the “we aren’t a real community” bullshit. We are just as real as ANY other community you can name. We started off, like many of them, as merely a fringe community and grew into what we are now.

We continue to grow. Just as EVERY other community has. We, sadly, won’t always get along, even in the best of times… Just as every other community. Yet. We grow.

To that end. It is my sincerest hope that one day. One day. We can get the fuck over the stupid assed power trips by people who can’t seem to control their own preternatural impulses long enough to see the harm they bring to the community as a whole. I don’t care WHAT kind of group you run. FOLLOW YOUR FUCKING RULES to the best of your ability and don’t just fucking do things to keep your higher ups “safe”. That is a dismal representation of the community as a whole and will ALWAYS lead to people thinking you are wrong about what you are doing.

This has been the Beast of Bitchery… Belfazaar Ashantison

Have a fucking night… I don’t give a damn what kind… Fuck off with the stupidity and leave my fucking name out of your fucking mouths.

Oh What A Web We Weave…

Oddly enough,  I am back again… This time, I am going to do the whole EFWAC thing that I was most known for, back in the day. For those of you not familiar with the earned acronym, let me spell it out for you. EFWAC means “Evil Faggot With A Cause”… Now, before anyone gets on their high horse. I AM an OPENLY gay man and CLAIM that word with all the power people has used it against me.


No. Let’s get right to the meat of why I am here tonight. The web of deceit that so many people seem intent on actively participating in. I’ve witnessed, time and again, people PURPOSELY misconstrue something by ACTIVELY changing words to twist something written/spoken to something completely different.  All it takes is moving/removing ONE word. Changing ONE word. In this case, using the term “BloodTHIRST” to replace “BloodLUST”.

By that very intentional switch, the person TRULY switched the meaning of what was written to something other than what was written. And they used that switch to entreat OTHERS on their behalf to make the original author, whom they blatantly left out, appear to be the enemy of their scenario. Well. Here’s where the EFWAC comes into this… I was the ORIGINAL author. It was MY words that were twisted and that is the ONE thing that I can NEVER forgive nor forget. Don’t pretend your intentions were/are honorable and that you’re just ‘making conversation’.

It was and always will be, used to demean someone else and make you, the twister, look better than you are. In the GVC, it is ONLY used to hype up a person’s followers and to shine a dark light on those who disagree with you on some banal level. How utterly Jr High of you… 

Yes. I wrote “HOW. UTTERLY. JR HIGH. OF. YOU.” Because that is EXACTLY what it is. It is just as stupid as that. Jr High, at best…

Instead of opening dialogue to further understanding, you would rather demean someone. Oh. You left my NAME out of your mouth and OFF your screen, however, we ALL know how the cliquish little circles run. You bring up a topic. Leave someone’s name out of it. Change ONE or more words. And WATCH… Your “friends” start jumping in on it. Rallying to your cause and accepting your point of view as “gospel truth” without ONE IOTA of searching to see if that IS what the person said/wrote or not. Then they come to you in private to see who would say/write such a thing. Then the whole thing spirals from there into a world of “he said/she said” nonsense that the GVC is rife with.

Your peep rally around your conflated ego to assuage your issue and reassure you that YOU are in the right. Fragile. Self-inflated. Egotistical. Misleading. And, yes… Jr High…

Again. If people want clarification on what I have said and/or written, why not just friggin ask me?? How hard is it? It’s not like I don’t answer people when they speak/write to me. Hell. I go out of my way to allow people to know WHERE they can find me when they come to New Orleans…

So. Stop with the Jr High routine. It is TRULY degrading and fits every little detail of what people say is the worst of the community.


The World According to Dark Tourist

OK my lovelies,

After much ado, hullabaloo, and outright poo, I’ve finally watched the episode of Dark Tourist that contained GVC members in it.  Ya know what I saw.  EXACTLY WHAT I EXPECTED TO.

Casual observation of the episode produces THIS synopsis: A person who is looking to understand the community based on his OWN point of view WHICH, by the way, had NOTHING to do with experience WITHIN the GVC.  This person, a journalist, with a sensationalized, produced for the limited attention span of the masses, wannabe scare-a-thon…

I watched as KNOWN vampires, Lord Chaz, Maven, Logan, and Daley appeared in the first portion to show their connections to vampirism.  Attempts to be enigmatic aside, they opened up themselves to show this person vampirism from THEIR perspective.  They shared Logan and Daley’s love for each other with the world by sharing a piece of their wedding.  Maven shared his thoughts and bared a piece of HIS soul…  All of it wasn’t the surreal “acting” piece that so many people seemed to make it out to be.  They weren’t garishly dressed.  They weren’t being all Shakespearean in effort. They were just being THEM.

So why all the hullabaloo over how they were dressed, acted, or whatever… I didn’t see the person/journalist being an asshole.  I saw them asking questions and getting nonplussed answers to those questions in an attempt to be enigmatic.  *shrug* When you allow a journalist to develop their own POV about what you are attempting to explain to them, you can’t be enigmatic and nonplussed in your answers… They will ALWAYS jump to the wrong conclusion on whatever the topic is… ESPECIALLY in a show that is based on sensationalism.

I watched as New Orleans Vampire Association members opened up their home and lives for the camera to celebrate one of their own in keeping with their own traditions.  I watched as, yet again, I performed a “clean technique” which WAS explained (yet somehow didn’t make it into the final cut… Ah. The magic of editing!!) as it is during EVERY filming.  Donovan (Sheoul, as he is known in the local community) WAS/IS a roommate, was not homeless when he moved in, and, this was his very first appearance on-screen.  Nervous. Yes.  He is not one of my regular Donors.  He was a stand-in because 2 of my Donors were out-of-town, 1 was sick, and the last one DOES NOT WANT TO BE ON CAMERA AT ALL due to his job sensitivity.

Unlike what people want to proclaim, this is and was the truth of the situation.

Editing notwithstanding, this episode wasn’t the worst thing filmed by any of the members of the GVC on ANY level.  The journalist was able to see MULTIPLE people within the community, straight, LGBT, dressed up, and in jeans and t-shirts… The only true issue I have is that for ALL of the time they spent with BOTH sets of Vampires, they cut it down to a 15 minute segment.  How is ANYONE supposed to get a clear view of the GVC if people film for days at a time to whittle it down to a 15 minute segment?

NOW FOR THE BITCH SECTION of this writing…

If you’re so fucking insecure about yourself that you have to tear someone else down due to the piss poor editing of a show, then maybe you should rethink your fucking role as a “leader” of the GVC.  I’m sorry… To attack someone based on a NON-GVC member’s point of view because you chose to PURPOSELY be enigmatic and nonplussed in your answering of questions is ASININE, at best. It is the height of STUPIDITY, at worst.  Worse yet, to attack someone’s sexuality… That numbers you among the lowest of the low. PERIOD.  I don’t expect an apology.  I don’t demand an apology.  I DESERVE an apology for your homophobic rhetoric… I know it won’t come, however, because of your own attitude. You echoed the same lies, in your heinous, whiny, bitchfest that others have attempted to slander me with over the years… Only this time… This time, you chose to post the lies to your wall and attempt to justify your lies by belittling any who spoke the truth to you.  Yeah… How very Trumplethinskin of  you… Typical of someone who doesn’t want to face the truth.  The truth is THE SHOW made you feel all assblasted butthurt.  The piss poor editing, the shoddy narration, and the lackadaisical journalist… NOT me.  NOT NOVA… The SHOW.

We won’t even get into the fact that NOVA attempted to drop out of the filming when the crew told us how you “invited” yourselves to participate in it because we didn’t want to be associated with ANYTHING you were part of.  It was the film company that stated that they wanted us to remain part of the filming because they felt you guys were ‘overacting’ and ‘unrealistic in your approach’… *shrug* We tried, they still wanted us to be part of it all.  In the end, they twisted everything from WHY I blessed Lori’s home to every aspect of your ‘performance’ before their cameras.

By all means, however… PLEASE… Continue to blame NOVA and me for the editing of a second rate travel program on a pay-per-view channel.  It shows just how much pull we, as an organization, have throughout the world… (that’s sarcasm, asshats…)

Oh… And to the OTHER person attempting to say the same thing EVEN after people who ACTUALLY lived with me for YEARS spoke up, your blind hatred of me shone through.  Blind.  Hatred.  That’s OK, dear.  We know that you’ve had a hard on for me since the day you announced how you and yours were leaving the community and I told you it was a foolish thing to do… Since then, any way to trash me, my work, my motivation, and anything else I am part of.  Nice try though.  Especially since your ‘key witness’ has never lived with me… EVER… *shrug*  Which means that it is unsubstantiated rumor, at best.  Thanks for playing the “let’s trash Zaar because I’m all butthurt that he wouldn’t support my effort to have Sanguine Vampires walk away from the GVC”… Johnny, tell her what she get’s to leave with!!!

Buh… Buh… Buh-bye.  Do come again…


Batten down the hatches, ladies and gentlemen, and secure the mainsail.  She’s gonna be a blow!!!


Everyone in the GVC has, at one point or another, felt the loss of a family member, friend, beloved pet/furbaby.  There is no… Let me repeat that for the members in the back of the audience… THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR BAD BEHAVIOR AND BELITTLING A PERSON OVER SUCH A LOSS.

IF, and I DO mean “IF”, you are the kind of person that can’t empathize or sympathize with someone over such a fucking loss.  KEEP YOUR FUCKING COMMENTS TO YOURSELF.  It shouldn’t matter whether or not you agree with their particular brand of politics, religious views, societal role, past misbehaviors, appearances, whathaveyou, THEY had a loss.  I don’t care what your association with the GVC is.  I don’t care whether you’re Vampire, Donor, Therian, Otherkin, Black Swan (supporter), interested party, or Vampiriologist.  You’re a disgusting piece of shit, to me, if you can’t be civil long enough to acknowledge the grief another is going through.

Who the fuck made you the fucking moral monitor of who does and does not deserve empathy/sympathy in a loss of this caliber? What fucking right have you to even fucking comment on who the people are or what they have or have not done, when a post is about FUCKING LOSS? I don’t care WHO the fuck you THINK you are, you’re a disgusting piece of shit if you can’t simply acknowledge a person’s loss and grief all the while making petty swipes at what you do or do not like about this fucking interview, that fucking appearance or what the fuck ever.  Grow the fuck up you high school wannabe acting fucks.

It is times of loss and grief that you’re supposed to be supportive of a community member, whether you agree with their motivations or not.  It is times of loss, suffering, and grief that we are supposed to reach out and PROVE that we are working towards making the community a better, more accepting place for ALL members of the community no matter what group they are affiliated with and no matter whether or not you agree with that group or their tactics.

A Personal Message to Logan, Daley, and Michelle:

Logan and Daley, I am sorry for your loss.  I know the grief of losing a furbaby.  When my Lucy Lu was taken from me by a hit and run driver right out in front of my home, it devastated me.  I still, to this day, feel the loss.  May you speed to recovery and may your remaining furbabies close the gaping whole left by your loss.

Michelle.  Never let assholes stop you from being the beautiful soul you are.  I don’t give a damn WHO they are.  Be you. Post what you want. Stop trying to appease everyone and work towards doing things you know make YOU feel better.